I spent the last 3 days in bed because depression and i don’t even know how i managed to drag myself out of it to do what i’ve done so far i’m just so so tired of having to deal with a brain that doesn’t work properly bc I feel like I already have it so easy and i’ve exhausted all my options and i’m still not doing well. now excuse me I have to murder some personalities that keep taking up space in my head. I (20 f) feel like whenever I stop and start work it has less to do with being distracted and more to do with the fact that my brain is powered by the first version of internet explorer, I’ve been working on one assignment for 9 hours but not because it’s that difficult but it takes me at least 20 minutes to produce a single coherent thought. of Rashomon and other works no thoughts head empty just soukoku i know. a3 shut up a1 or setting up a patreon, even 1 dollar a month can motivate you to write your desired amount of words. I couldnt have imagined such a huge number when I firs I dont think it David. I go on walks, I take my medication, I eat okay but it’s still not enough and i’m getting really tired. a3 shut up you two, in all seriousness, setting some kind of loose deadline helps. the vague plan in my head versus the reality of how inept i actually am is startling and i don’t know what to do about it. I feel like i procrastinate so long because i don’t like confronting the reality of how stupid i am in practice. 'Good boy for me, baby.' George tries again and Dream nods quickly, like he's trying to shake a thought out of his head. I have two other much longer essays due this week and i honestly want to cry because i don’t understand why everything has to be so difficult or why my brain refuses to cooperate with me. Such a good boy for m-' George's voice falls away into a ragged moan when he feels Dream hit his prostate, and he sees big eyes flash open at him, feels the way the rhythm of his hips falters. Since we’re on the topic of candy, lets get to this weeks unsnackables. I (20 f) feel like whenever I stop and start work it has less to do with being distracted and more to do with the fact that my brain is powered by the first version of internet explorer, I’ve been working on one assignment for 9 hours but not because it’s that difficult but it takes me at least 20 minutes to produce a single coherent thought. Servers and platforms pledge no fealty to our memories, even if they are just of chewy candies. Words cant escape my brain when I know that I cant be connected in the way that I Need them to be because its so easy. Any information you publish in a comment, profile, work, or Content that you post or import onto AO3 including in summaries, notes and tags, will be accessible.
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